Izlazim iz kuće sa lavorom punim prljave vode u rukama. Niz ulicu silazi neki čovjek. Gleda prema meni a zatim skreće pogled. Ja nastavljam prema drvetu jabuke i prosipam vodu na zemlju oko nje.
Možda bih trebao oprati auto?
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Čarli Kaufam ima novi film. Zove se I'm Thinking of Ending Things i pojavio se na Netfliksu za Gremov rođendan. Rađen je po istoimenoj knjizi Iena Rida iz 2016.
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I’m thinking of ending things.
Once this thought arrives, it stays. It sticks. It lingers. It dominates. Tere’s not much I can do about it. Trust me. It doesn’t go away. It’s there whether I like it or not. It’s there when I eat. When I go to bed. It’s there when I sleep. It’s there when I wake up. It’s always there. Always.I haven’t been thinking about it for long. The idea is new. But it feels old at the same time. When did it start? What if this thought wasn’t conceived by me but planted in my mind, predeveloped? Is an unspoken idea unoriginal? Maybe I’ve actually known all along. Maybe this is how it was always going to end.
Jake once said, “Sometimes a thought is closer to truth, to reality, than an action. You can say anything, you can do anything, but you can’t fake a thought.”
